live for the moment

Should you take that step?

2012-01-09T00:30:00.001+08:00

Was chatting with Kim on saturday,realize that I really missed out quite a lot of thing.What she said was right, the more I think the more I won't do. In the end I will become like the 30 years old guy that did not archieve anything at his age. I cannot afford to be like him.Yes, I set very high standard for myself.If I never take that 1st step I will never find out the truth. Yes, I might lose everything I have now. It's worth a a try, at least I have chosen something that I like. In my mind and heart, I always think that when you do the things you like you will never get tired and sick of it.Like my bro once said to me, it's up to me to choose $ or dream. Yes, Singapore is a damn practical place to live in. The next move I made might determine my future.I always dream that I could 1 day become a person so influential that when I am gone 1 day, they still remember me.Can I be one? I don't know..I always think that only artist/singers enjoy this prevalidge. Maybe I am wrong.Maybe I am just too vain thus think so. Lolz..

1st post in 2012!

2012-01-07T02:35:00.000+08:00

huat ar!!! its 2012 lo...lo!!!

i presume/predict that it will be a gd gd yr ahead..

first we end 2011 with 2 joyful chalet..
then we kick off 2012 with my bro's wedding!

yes, everyone least expected guy to get married really get married..
and.. out of sudden i become shu shu already.. ha..

Jayden super funny and cute.. talk like xiao bing bing.. full of nonsense yet sensible.. :)

may this year be the more happier year.. time to throw away 2011 which i suffered through out..
many predicted 2012 is the end of the world.. but.. not me.. certainly.. not jay..
look forward to this year, alt i am 1/4 century old :)

the world's not over yet!

coming to an end 2011

2011-12-26T23:58:00.000+08:00

NS apart, this is the most busies year that i ever have.. largely due to this project i am working on..
but fear not, 5 more months to the end.

i will be proud to say, i survive this horrifying project. i walk out of it alive.

of cause, i must thanks everyone that have supported me through out.
no name needed, you all know who you are.

thank you :)

25 dec 11

2011-12-26T23:51:00.003+08:00

25 dec 11, everyone enjoy the fun.
I’m sure they will agree with me.
We are like on a ride with the time machine,travailing back in time to our good old schooling days.
Even we seldom meet up, we rarely talk to each other, we grow old, but we will never cut our bold. That’s for sure.

All these fun will forever be remembered by us.

Merry christmas my friend, you all worth the time in my life. I never regret knowing you all.
Wish you guys all the best! All good things follow you. :)

those that we lose

2011-12-17T13:09:00.001+08:00

http://yearinreview.yahoo.com/

so many of them, we all rem.

21km

2011-12-05T00:53:00.001+08:00

It's all mind over body, I still completed the marathon with my bags on!!Even though the timing is not that good..This year organizer suck big time.. Poor management and worst is someone died.. They better explain why..Anyway still happy that I know I still can run even this event I walk about 17km!!Thanks to my bag that ain't allowed to be deposit.. Thanks to scb.1 more 21km and 10km to "retire" my shoe..or myself actually..

他在哪？

2011-11-22T23:57:00.001+08:00

“我也喜欢当年喜欢着你的我”

你要当谁？

2011-11-21T00:11:00.001+08:00

你的梦想是什么？

“我要当个很厉害的人。这世界因为有了我，会有一点点的不一样”

我的命，我决定。

2011-11-13T02:40:00.001+08:00

是的，因为工作我错过了前半段。最精彩的部分，我竟然没看。
后悔，为什么当初我会选择做工而不是读书先。

决定了。
明年6月后，我将会离开这里。
去寻找我的人生，让自己快乐点。

那些年,我们一起追的女孩

2011-11-13T02:06:00.001+08:00

那些年，真的说出我们的心声。带我们回去回忆里的我们。回忆起那时的我们，那时的我。
很感动，尤其是男主角对他心爱的女生所说的一切。所做的一切。

“我还没牵你的手，怎么能让别的男生牵”
“没了你，我的回忆怎么办？”
“如果你真正喜欢一个女孩，你知道她有人疼，有人关心。你会真心祝福她。”

因为没勇气，不敢对心爱的女生表白。错过了当初的机会。两人一直都没在一起。
原来女生也很喜欢他。
让我想起那时的我。

直到女生结婚的那一天，他才拿出他的勇气！
虽然很好笑，但我还是忍不住。。。很感动。

真开心，终于有一部电影的想法和我一样。了解我。

直到现在，我还是对这部电影很有感觉。
男主角的一切，真像我。

worth it?

2011-11-11T01:13:00.001+08:00

worth it?

This is not the original post that I wanted to post.. I wrote a lot but the stupid web don’t allow me to post thus no choice but to rewrite again.. Because I am damn unhappy with things happening.. The only way to show my displeasure is to write!!

Today my friends went for movie yet I am still in the damn stupid meeting wasting my time n life there listening to uncle and aunty that does not make any contribution to this earth.. alt I dun like the show but the way I unable to join my friends pissed me off big time..

This job is wasting my time, my life, my energy, my youth , my health and most importantly my freedom..
Wtf is this?

I have been voicing my displeasure since octotber because I know i am not cut to be in corporate world.. My world have no email, no hippocrip and definitely no old fashion people that does not know how to wear..

Papa was saying where can I find such paid and position for my age now, pls.. It’s everywhere.. The only diff is I got a car..
Mama was saying that we should work with people we know or familiar with.. But the fucking prob is from day 1 I already said I dun want to work with people I know.. I want to prove myself!
Sis ask me stay for 10 years before decide again.. Wtf!? 10 yrs!?

When Is people going to start listening to me? They don’t support me and actually most of the time they dont!

Maybe I shall perform a “leslie chang”.

back in time

2011-11-07T04:44:00.002+08:00

for more than "x" yrs.. since i gone out on a sunday night to chill to relax to "waste" time..

SS was great as ever and the time of talking nonsense came back.. lolz.. everyone is still same except the topic changed to more mature content.. unlike those time when we were practically talking nonsense.. funny and creative nonsense that is..

cant stop luffing... how great were those time we had..
today.. it came back.. even just for a day..

life is short, time is limited. dont stop celebrating and enjoying your "loan" time on earth..
enjoy every moment you wake up on the next day :)

historic place

2011-11-07T04:38:00.003+08:00

picture tell a thousand words:
KBPS

YCKSS

rocketeers

2011-11-01T01:49:00.001+08:00

wow, super hyperactive for the past few days.

been a while since i last so crazily enjoy myself instead of the work work work days.

friday went USS-Halloween and after that Butter!
played the scary ride (actually not so scary) and also 1st time go to halloween costume placed.
must have missed out all the fun for the past yrs.

after that headed to butter (rain somemore), but since is friend's bday so just went over to enjoy with them.

cant stop dancing all night, even the night after. lolz. i shld have become dancer.

party rock all days all nights.
rock'on!

sat drink star buck at late nite and watch mid nite show. sunday wedding dinner!
if all week/days i enjoy myseld like these, would have grown more handsome.

hahahahahahahaha....

on a side note..

hello power mama! when is ur son joining us?
his gift is collecting web and dust!

oct-surprise

2011-10-18T00:01:00.002+08:00

this month marks the day i have been in this project for 1/2 yrs! so fast..
didn't really know what i have learn.. learn to handle people maybe?

anyway, this month is the luckiest month! not me.. but all my friends and relative :)

1 got engaged,
2 got married,
3 birthday,
2 give birth.

what a month!

i dun really care abt the $ tt.. becos $ is just like that lor...

hahahaha..

time to save some $ tt, its going to be xmas. NY. most impt, time to buy car insurance again!
damn.

feel like writing something heartfelt, but tireness overtook my emotion tt...
shall write on the other day..

it has been xxx month since i run on a weekday!
when is this type of life coming back?

next april? or june?

next yr planned to study, but course still undecide yet.. design? marketing? management?
suggestion?

i can remember

2011-10-09T22:43:00.002+08:00

last friday went to L.O.U.D concert, particularly for Jay!
it has been so long since he came to sing. i think last year was his 10yrs anniversary concert.

still nobody can replace him in this era, not even 老萧. song by song, bring back the memories.
so fast 10yrs passed by. like what Jay said, we listen to his song since young.
really never expected, from the naive and arrogant kids to today humble but still naive old kid.
hahahahaha...

maybe, from this concert i found out who i want to be. maybe what i want to do.
maybe this week is a reminder/wake up call to me?

Jay, talented and charismatic.
Steve Job, visionary and innovative.

what is the common thing they have?

they are remembered by everyone.
they change people life through their way.
they change the way people think.
they inspired people through they work.

that's who i want to be. what i have been looking forward to.

be it an artist. an innovator.
they make a impact to us.

yes, i enjoy the lime light and attention. because they let me know that people remember me.
be it good or bad.

maybe i should be working at somewhere, somewhere where i can inspired people. somewhere i can change people life. some work that allows me to express myself.

naive vs mature

2011-09-30T00:03:00.001+08:00

met up with YW on Wednesday night with her bf for supper.
its been a long while since i saw her?

ya.. anyway.. our topic surround on our job, life view, future, targets etc etc etc..
they were talking about their business and what they want to achieve in their life.
kinda inspiring and motivating by the way or should i say their view.

from the way she talk, can see she grown up and more mature.. but still the way she talk... hahahahaha..

Today, even more surprisingly. meet up with MJ for high tea at her work place. the security guard is so lame. i told him i was there to interview and he just let me in. don't know he stupid or friendly. hahaha

still topic is around job, future, studies etc etc etc.. but i think i never sit down and chat with her so long before.. suddenly find her so mature and her thinking really differ from how i look at her..

of cos not so much serious talk, most of the time is i whining and complaining my job.. lolz..
her work place really impress me a lot.. guess that the different between Big Org and SME. really!

although is kinda boring, but at least she got more time and more life.. compared to mine..

anyway, both of them was telling me to quit my current job (as normal as everyone was telling me).

maybe i am too mindful about what i have now?
or maybe i really can't let my bro and boss down?

so what about me?

feel so good after catching up with them, at least i still can smile even i am so tired....

is people around me growing more mature and stable? or i am just too simple, naive and careless?
they were saying we aren't young anymore.. is like wtf!? 24 only!

Situation

2011-09-28T12:00:00.001+08:00

This is a hate/like situation where I like to move around but also hate to go out too often. Is like wtf!?

poor mr.j

2011-09-21T00:04:00.001+08:00

here we go

2011-09-21T00:04:00.000+08:00

Life is fragile

2011-09-10T04:10:00.002+08:00

life is fragile.

It always pain me to see my brother's friend.
Because he look haggard and tired and stressful all the time compared to the one I saw 10 years ago who is always been cheerful and happy go lucky type.

All because of work work work.
All he ever ask for is so simple.

A average salary, a happy family, a 5 day work job.
That's it!

It may sound native and childish and fairy tale like to you, but I am just the same!
The only thing is can we do this in Singapore? Please tell me.

Sometime I really admire his thinking.
Simple and happy. Unlike many of us, complicated and "evil".
All thanks to the modern selfish human thinking.

Lack of human touch.

be happy

2011-08-30T23:35:00.004+08:00

thank you miss k and miss ml for ur encouragement :)
also the book from miss k!

screw it

2011-08-30T01:06:00.005+08:00

this is terrible.
absolutely unacceptable.

while people of my age are happily celebrating,partying ,enjoying.

i am at home now writing this type of crap and feeling lousy.

why?

because i care too much about work and screw up my life.

f_ _ _ i can't feel any worst than this.

where is my life? where is my job satisfaction?

where is my heart? where is my smile?

where is my future?

how do i write the future of myself when i don't even know what i am doing now?

screw it.

TGIF!

2011-08-26T02:38:00.001+08:00

Actually just finished my work.But still, can't sleep despite the shagginess.

Don't know why I so excited even tomorrow I got no after work program.. Kinda suck.
Anyway, I can feel that something good is coming up. How I know? When I am tired, I am still feeling good.

Weird.

no life?

2011-08-23T00:07:00.002+08:00

was so tired and restless.

Nevertheless, still came in to post.

Cause I need to express out as much as I can!
Hahaha.. Anw my life is no life :(

It sux actually.. Seeing ppl at my age r enjoying their time while I slogging my guts out for reason I don't know too...

love season

2011-08-14T04:04:00.001+08:00

its the love season.

few of my friend got their other half.
congrats!

for those not, good luck and look forward to it!

rekindle memories

2011-08-14T03:50:00.002+08:00

fireworks :)

mr.me

2011-08-04T23:22:00.001+08:00

sometime i wished i wasn't that rational.. or mayb overly sensitive/observant..
so i can be as happy and native as ppl in taiwan or mayb japan...

cheerful as can be :)

Amy

2011-07-31T23:08:00.002+08:00

mayb I shld be like leslie n Amy.
atleast they r true-ful to themselves.
even their ending is not a gd one.

活着的人未必开心
死去的人未必伤心

die. think I am getting too insane/depress.
even I luff so hard, I still not happy.

WWF

2011-07-30T19:08:00.002+08:00

WWF is classic!
ofcos is WWF and not WWE.

which i think the name and character now sux.
the old fashion character, theme and story line.. totally own whatever it has now..

rem my fav.

Bret "Hit Man" hart aka mr pink?
"The Bad Guy" Razor Ramon aka mr hairy?

some of the few name to be mention..

think the last WWF i watch is the ERA of

"stone Cold" Steve Austin aka mr character
The Rock aka mr enterainment
ofcos MY FAV. D-Generation X aka DX.

"Oh you didn't know? you @$$ better call somebody!"
"Ladies and gentlement,boys and girls, children of all ages."
"if you are not down with that.. i got 2 words for ya....! SUX IT!!"

sound irony and cheesy?
atleast it makes mark down somewhere, even i am in sg!

R u alive!?

2011-07-25T23:59:00.002+08:00

reading sad post can be addictive..
So Shld say one is sadist?
Nope.

every word pitch n if u can feel means u still very much not blinded by power fame and money..
can't help but to read the blog again n again.. knowing sadness is all I get.. But still cant help to read the post..

Sadist? Mayb.
In fact, I need to feel more things again..

iweekly posted 1 article wot quote/theme

"永远的遗憾".

So how I like this.. Guess I had too many bad impression n negative tt of this world..
In any case.. Time to slp n face the world again tml.

Opps 6hr later..

zzzzzzz

R.I.P

2011-07-24T23:04:00.002+08:00

juz like tat.

Amy winehouse is gone.
"no no no"

R.I.P

fuckinPerfect

2011-07-24T03:03:00.002+08:00

make a wrong turn, once or twice..
welcome to mine, silly life..

curiousity kills a cat
jealousy kills a man

B4 u 4get

2011-07-19T23:39:00.002+08:00

was reading tru some blog to kill off my boring life..
yes,boring as ever becos I find no real idea or focus in my life..

Everyday work Hm slp.. Wat more?

But this blog.. Makes me think again..
Is this how I really wan my life to be? Eat work Hm slp?

or I can turn it n throw everything out the window n truly live for the moment?
the sadness this blog posted makes no hiding, no fake. all truly n lovely REAL feeling..
I Mayb know how this blogger feel, but I can understand Wt the blogger was saying..
Eventually I live only once.. But how come I am missing Alot of things tat my fellow peep are enjoying?

Does money, fame, car really tat impt to me?
Or living as a poor chap but carefree attitude makes me more happier?

I can take the fact life is tough n society is cruel.
I can't take the fact I am wasting my life for no purpose..

In sg, is all the gal so materialistic? Or the once "believe in love" girl Nv exist anymore?

I can't feel anything. Some thing goes wrong?

runaway nv say gd byz

2011-07-19T22:33:00.002+08:00

shld i stop working n study again?
or work n study?

go on holidays?
sell away my car n squeeze MRT?

some old fugly whinner i met is a double physics NUS grad n the situation he is in now..

down.

study got use? or chances and luck more impt?
youth?

what a mess

2011-07-16T01:49:00.002+08:00

11.05pm email and 1.40am sms.

wat kind of life?
i hate to whine.. esp even on my personal space.

1 day i shld perform a leslie zhang.

生存以上，生活以下 - 2

2011-07-14T22:57:00.003+08:00

读太多英文字会累，所以应该读一点华文子。
不然，你连你的姓名都会忘了怎么写！！

好无聊，生活一点都无趣。
我想我应该认识多一点新朋友，让我自己多开心点。

有没有新朋友介绍？

手机应该让他休息一夜。
十年前没有手机，每个朋友的电话和地址我都能记住。
现在，可能五个都记不住。真丢脸。

哈哈哈，有没有新工作介绍？类如，作者？空少？演员？
哈哈哈。。。。。

五千一个月？是不是应该去试试？
对不起，钱对我不重要。只要我开心，再多的工作我都会做。
对不起，现在这份工两者都没有。逊。

爱情？只有看人家开心的机会。。:(
哈哈哈。。。

应该多喝几杯才不会这么累。
脑瓜就能暂停一天。
真累，睡也睡不好，脑袋一直不会停。
逊。

我怀念的

2011-07-10T22:38:00.001+08:00

it has been a long time since i go to pasan malam..

today is the last day den i got time to pop up to @@ look look lor!!!

wanted to buy hp cover.. the one i am using is damn boring which bored to me to death.. hahaa..

anw, while i was otw to there i walk past this young couple(kid). remind me of my younger days when i was walking pasan malam wit my then, gf.

tat feelin is simple but realistic. undenielable real.

hold hand, walk ard, eat delicious junkie.. hahaha... that was den...

even not wit gf, a grp of frenz wit the same life n style walkin there was pure happiness..

gone were the days when we used to do tat...

now everyone is busy wit their own life, their work, their family, their new friend, their problem... no longer the happy go lucky, smiley ignorance kiddo we used to be...

how sad it is huh? life in singapore... sometime i wished i was born in taiwan, alt life is tough but it is more simple, more real, more lively, more humantarien environment to be in.. they may not have the most advance or safe environment, but at least the people there have more hearts to live compared to us..

nowadays i dun think a lot of youngster know how to appreciate this type of feelin.. or maybe is becos i went at the last day thus no see a lot youngster..

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on the side track, i think its time i really shld start to use my brain to think for my future..

is like wat the F.CK lor.

2011-07-03T01:47:00.002+08:00

if u think u r earning 2k - 3k and u r earning alot?
think twice...

is like wat the fuck lor.. ppl at my age is earning 5k per month for doing things they like (or mayb they dun). atleast the amt is worth the effort...

the poor jeremy is earning $x and fucking work his ass off everyday including weekend..
no life to top it up!

wtf!? i am not better than him? i dun think so.. b*tch..

its time for me to go out and venture.

blah blah blah

2011-06-30T23:34:00.001+08:00

duno wat to do tml.. weekend... everyday...

lifeless aka no life = sianz...

!@$$)(@##!@$@#%&^()*)#@#$!~!^)(!!

i'm singaporean!

2011-06-28T22:07:00.001+08:00

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/blogs/singaporescene/narrowing-racial-divide-pore-due-foreign-threat-032651925.html

pls go n read up..
i am certainly the true singaporean!

FO! you so called "foreign talent", u r nth compared to us.

become who u wan?

2011-06-26T22:54:00.002+08:00

do u hv dreamz?
do u hv idea?
do u have regret?

last fri, found out tat wat i hv been doing is actually not my fav job...

my characteristic, my style, my attitude, my bones are not to be in this line.

mayb i shld consider to switch line...

i shld be in the fashion, multi-media or entertainment line...

business and corporate world r not meant for me... i dun think i suit there....

endangering

2011-06-21T23:17:00.000+08:00

time to get a tattoo for myself :X

MD joker of the day

2011-06-20T23:18:00.002+08:00

my MD, told me to faster earn $ n get a new conti car instead of jap car.. -_-"
he think i print $$$? or see me very up there? lolz..

the best is i juz got mine barely a month a go... -_-"

rocketeer

2011-06-19T23:58:00.002+08:00

her we go... take my hand... there's a world out there that we should see...

very true this lyrics... life shouldn't be juz about work eat slp.
life should be about playing, loving and seeing the world too!

1 day i am gonna tell this to a gal tat i love so much, if i met her tt...
muhahhaahhaah, whahahahahah, kakakkakakaka...

wow!

2011-06-16T22:53:00.001+08:00

wow.. it all came so sudden... mayb wat i sow is now reaping?

hahahahahahaha... but how long is it going to last..?

chaotic life style

2011-06-12T23:24:00.006+08:00

aft 2 months of rubbish n hell..

yesterday finally.... got time to do some shopping form myself...
its been months since i got time to do things for myself...
hvn got time to relax eversince 17 april 11 !!!!

went to Ikea with ml n kim to relax... after tat went town to eat dinner... n finally yishun dam to blow wind...

the time to unwind is damn shiok...

tru our conversation, realise i still missed out alot of fun... still duno wat i want for myself... wat am i expecting... no idea at all... not enjoying my life/work, that is the down part...

seriously hate this type of feeling... blindly doing and not expecting anything...
is like u only live once in ur life n wat the hell am i doing now?

is not i wan to feel stress out and nag, like ml say she got stress too..

everyday work work work work work... n the best thing? my boss text me on a sat to remind me of work..

dun get me involve in ur no life living.. tats ur prob not mine..
totally spoilt my day...

FUCK YOU, u got no life.

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if not for my bro and MD, i would have left.

this is life?

2011-05-29T23:13:00.002+08:00

sometime, so feel like walking out.
stop everything.
run away.

how come everything turn out so?

is it really becos life is really tat tough?
or did i take things too easily?

or mayb my laidback style really don't suit this job?

my nature n character not matching my job?

so tired.

nobody wan to fail. so do i.
success really is tat hard to achieve?

shld i juz follow my heart or follow my mind?

for a few time i feel like quitting becos i am so not into my job n tired of being bombard by everyone.

i regret not taking up studies aft ORD, but having seen my friend (graduate) is also struggling even with his degree.

wat will happen if i quit?

tml is another DAY again.... here comes the pain...

feel like i am wasting my life away... $ is not everything but it is impt in this society...
10 yrs down the road i ask myself.

"what have you achieve? what have you enjoyed and tried in your life?"

i think i cant ans oso.....

so many many question to fill in for myself.........
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missed out a wedding dinner tonite... thanks to my work...
but i do agreed with wat my sis say..

she was saying that y my uncle nv go, juz becos wan to stay n closed his shop.
not even wanting to leave 2hr earlier only!

how many times u get to go to a wedding dinner?
i wanted to go oso no chance, y he can go but choose not too?

becos sg ppl r getting more practical n less emotional?

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anw, hv a fun run yest. completed my 1st 21km marathon... ahahaha now whole body pain...
anw.. 21kn is nth.. since i completed 42km b4 already...

mayb will target to complete 10 x 21 km?

lolz...

as busy as can be...

2011-05-15T22:32:00.002+08:00

super shag... super tired... super super sleepy..
is all these effort worth it?

i duno....

was chatting with campmate, suddenly i tt of setting up my own business...
tired of looking at boss's "weather"... received call on SUNDAY somemore...

nevertheless.. i still enjoy working cos it stop me from thinking negatively and gd byz to "duno wat to do" days... hahaha...

but end up, i can't join my friend for most of the things... sianz..
life in sg is way toooooooo boring..............

mayb i shld follow my cousin foot step of working oversea?

whaahahahahahh shag....

fantasy or reality?

2011-04-24T23:17:00.003+08:00

wow.. aft so long.. been so busy work work work...
from 10am - 6pm, monday - friday job
now become 8am -6pm + + monday to saturday (f@rk) job..

damn shag.. damn busy...

yes, i can choose to stay at 1 place n do the daily routine, relax n get paid for doing nth..

u may hv wondered y did i choose to do tat?
doin it the easy way, nv learn much n face uncle,aunties,ang mo everyday, wait for day to pass.

but i juz cant laid down.

blame on my character.. blame on my ego.. so be it..

i may hv choose the harder route n it may backfire on me... but y dun give myself a chance?

i rather go out, see alot of f@rkup human den sticking at 1 place to rot n die..

pls.. i'm juz 24.. i cannot be tat damn useless n not adventurous..

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hhahahaha i juz so like to complain..

becos i feel tat wat the company has promised me in the first place is actually not happening..

the "boss want to groom u", "this job has alot of prospect" , "we will teach u" n blah blah blah..

ALL ARE BULLSHIT!

now i feel like i was cheated into this company becos of their man shortage issue.

now i'm working like a coo-li, sweating every f@rking single day, doin 3 times, if not more work than my fellow DIPLOMA holders.

THE BEST PART IS I AM AT BETTER RESULT THAN THEM.

n those ITE n BTC faggot, r enjoying air con, working late n leaving early life... compared to mine.. wat the fuck is this?

like i mentioned, a retard A level student who tt she got gd result (which she cant even get into local U) r earnin more n enjoying more benefit than my fellow DIPLOMA friends.

FUCKING CB, wat is this?

Pls dun get me wrong, I hv NO discrimination against ANYONE.
I juz feel tat ppl r doin the wrong job, or getting the wrong paid.

if this situation don't change, i will juz leave.

from all this bullshit.

the best is my dumbfuck bro still thinki'm not working hard enough n i'm in no position to negotiate.

BEST.

wait till u'll see. 1 day u will eat ur own word.

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enough abt stupid work... now back to normal...

i think i need to get a new skill/talent. mayb piano/guitar? or drum to ROCK n ROLL!?

or get a degree?

the end is not near, the end is here?

2011-04-12T22:24:00.001+08:00

my job no longer impress me anymore.. but who knows wat happen next.. hopefully by the end of this yr i know wat i wan b4 moving forward again... peace.

godsis's wedding on 27 march 11

2011-04-04T23:35:00.004+08:00

congrats to my godsis!!! wish her hv a happily ever after marriage :)

cousin tat dono me

godma & godpa

godfamily & the lovely couple :)

the cousins!

梦想？

2011-03-27T00:41:00.004+08:00

失望，无奈，无助。

该不该丢下重重的壳，去寻找到底哪里有蓝天。

得不到的梦想，换个梦不就得了？

多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
眼前的路该怎么走。难以抉择。

功成名就不是目的，活得快乐才有意义。

xing shu, na bo gong chu lai.. wu xia lan a zai?

稻香

2011-03-27T00:30:00.007+08:00

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什么人要这么的脆弱堕落
请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好

不要这么容易就想放弃就像我说的
追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色
先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机现在终于飞回我手里

所谓的那快乐赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了谁在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著风唱著歌睡著了
哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好

Influential Figure in my life : part 2

2011-03-20T23:09:00.005+08:00

周杰伦:

没错，就是他。
他的歌，才华，个性　都深深地吸引着我。

一开始就对他有反感因为他唱歌咬字不清不楚，都不知道他在唱什么！
也不知道他到底在耍什么帅！一直装酷。。　-_-"　

至到这首歌：

让我深深地“爱”上了他，让我开始欣赏他的音乐。
一直到现在！！！

他的歌曲，让我有浓浓深厚的回忆。让我有推动力。
给我惊喜，给我思考。

不想其他歌手，只会唱“爱爱爱”。。。

如果你不知道，没关系。我告诉你！

想《双节棍》《稻香》《一路向北》《退后》《暗号》《爱在西元前》《魔术先生》
《牛仔很忙》《你听的到》《免费教学录音带》《我不配》《简单爱》《超人不会飞》
等等等。。。。

家庭歌曲：《爸我回来了》《外婆》《爷爷泡的茶》《听妈妈的话》！！！
最重要的是他还用妈妈的名《叶惠美》做专辑！

会唱歌，会写歌，会作词作曲，会演戏，会拍戏，会主持.. 这种多才多艺的人，真的是很难找！

电影：头文字D 和不能说的秘密是我的最爱！

当然出道10年了，也有很多新人。但，我还是喜欢他

谁叫他是

周杰伦。

congratulation ah bob!!!

2011-03-07T00:59:00.002+08:00

congratulation to Mr. Bobby Tay aka ah bob and Mrs Tay aka mdm law!!
wish u 2 a very happy marriage n be happily ever after!! :)

~bee

*sorry for saying the wrong thing, pardon me. what i meant was drink with u again next time, not next time again.

guess whos back!

2011-03-02T23:18:00.003+08:00

finally.......... ah bee..... has...... come back..... to...... l.i.v.e again!
hahahahaha....

been MIA for the past few wks becos really got no mood/time/energy to write...

so fast CNY juz zoooorroooooommmmm by...

hahahahahaha... ang bao, baw gua, sweet, eat n eat n eat.. house visiting, friend gathering,
this yr abit special? with bday celebration and hens night.. (:

some unknown photo taken when drinking..

this yr marks alot of diff...
ah ber got married n hv son, ml get hitched. who next? lolz..
anw congrat to mei lee aka mrs lim!!! sorry cant attend ur rom.. stuck (sux) at work..

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till now i still duno y i choose to work first n not study first.. mayb i wan to proof to ppl i can withstand hardship? independent? hardworking?
cos i look like ah sia to many which everyone get the wrong idea..

greediness? show off?
infront of ppl always wan to act?

even i wan to study, i cant seems to find any course tat i am interested..
duno y i didnt took fashion design in NAFA.. mayb study liao become ah gua? opps.. hahaha

somehow till now, i still thinking whether shld i go for studies or get myself a vehicle first.
is my future really lies on this line/company? or my future road is still awaiting at someother place?

i do regret not study first.
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the gd news over now the bad. ~_~

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kinda dislike my colleague at work.. is like WTF is she doing? come to work at 12 N EAT LUNCH, leave at 5.30 to go to sch? get paid do nth n play facebook. get higher paid than my friend tat slog their guts out? FUCK. get paid raise somemore.. knn.. wtf is this world come to?
if at anytime by chance anyone from my com see this, pls go ahead to tell any boss. cos i dun fuck care. its juz injustice to my friend. i detest.

its not tat i hv no sense of concern, given her family prob.
the only 2 reason i can find is either : her entire family is really crap or the prob is her.
n even u r studying PT doesnt mean u no need do ur job n leave for sch early. btw u fucker u come late to work everyday, eat on boss. this type of human? i rather hire country B, atleast they work hard.

i hv no mood or time to listen to ur princess type family story, becos its ur prob. y bring to work place? u r bring ur trouble to trouble my friend. u facking selfish, self-centred idiot.

if u grow ugly, short, fat, dress like shit its ok. but if u r lazy, i look down on u.

speaking of workplace, i cannot believe a 40-50+ UNCLE behaving like a small kid doing childish thing. may ur whole family be poor for the rest for their life for as long as u live. cheerz!

after cursing for so many time, i think i shld hv more ulcer. as often as it is tt. who cares. lolz..
anw, so shiok to scream here n curse lazy human. they deserved it.

muhahahahaaa.....

its my bday!!!

2011-01-26T00:30:00.009+08:00

hahaha 24 yrs juz passes by...

really misses those time when alot or many ppl genuine celebrates ur bday..
they dun appear for the sake of doing so, or manly becos another one appear thus appear..

nowadays... H.A.R.D.

anw.. this yr was not bad :) :) :)

atleast ppl rem n bought me cakes!! hahaha..

when u least expected...

like kim? like my boss? like hs?

juz out of nowhere.. hahahahaha..

lets go back in time when alot... to many.... to some... to....

06

08 (21st bday)

12?

unlucky or unfriendly?

2011-01-18T00:24:00.002+08:00

mayb i know y.
mayb i duno wat happen.

mayb i am not so popular.
mayb.

sometime i really cannot _stand..
the prob is lie within me or the others?
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anw, thanz to ml for the camera!!!!! arigato...
alt hate to bother ppl... but for my sis...
thanz thanz... enjoy ur trip!! :)

trust ppl easily or juz being sensative?

2011-01-12T23:54:00.001+08:00

i do all the hardwork, my "boss" sent the mail out..
how come it looks like he is the one doing all the job n claim all the credit?
or izzit juz me being overly sensitive?

anyone tell me?

Mr Pro. Awesome.

2011-01-11T00:56:00.002+08:00

juz now watch hong kong drama.. the female main lead cry her heart out..
really can feel abit of the pain.. duno is becos her acting skill really tat gd.. or izzit tat i experience too many time of the same situation..

when a girl really heart broken.. u can feel..
when a guy really heart broken.. nobody knows..

see the diff?

hahahahaha..........

something

2011-01-09T23:42:00.004+08:00

saw kl's mother today.. she looked so hagged n thin... really duno wat to say... a person suddenly become like tat.. hopefully she will be ok..

as time goes by.. i run lesser.. start to concern juz i dun play very much like i do..
nvtherless.. i still able play abit.. hahaaha.. muz be too long nv play.. touches all gone.. move all rusty..

fri nite drinkin wit ml n kim was not bad.. alt we didnt tok much.. juz enjoy the music n shouting.. n the booze.. think i muz stop drinking.. kinda tired of the feelin to vomit n hangover.. its time i start to think for my future.. my career, my deg, my car.

die liao la.. till now still hvn get my CNY armour.. somemore work cannot fin.. n phuket trip coming.. if boss dun approve me.. HOW>? knn to all those fucking ang mo la..

on the other hand.. i really need to earn alot more..

21 jan

2011-01-05T23:11:00.004+08:00

15 days and48min from now.
yeah!!!!! its my birthday again!!!!

FB flooded? sms flooded?

juz another friday at hm.................................................................................................

but actually..................................................................................................

who remember its my fav day?

the more u expect......................... the harder u drop........................................

下一站，幸福

2011-01-04T00:31:00.002+08:00

下一站，幸福。
下一站真的幸福？
如果是，请告诉我是哪一站。

basic (get real wit urself)

2011-01-02T23:51:00.003+08:00

everyone choose their own life. nobody can stop unless under circumstances.
the diff between is always clear. i wasn't from the class, there will always be a gap no matter how close u claim it is.

u choose ppl, ppl oso will choose u.
it is very obvious wat one will do for their preferred choice compared to others.
even sharing of things.

yes. i am disappointed. becos i am considered miscellaneous to others. in a very obvious way.

when u nv get 1 thing, u will always get another.
tat y it is called blessing in disguise.

fame,$,status r temporary.
feeling,friendship,family r forever.

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congrats to ah ber for safely giving birth to a healthy baby :)
u wont expect me to say these few yrs ago. hahahahaha...
aft so long, u will realise tat being rich n famous is actually nth too big..
everyone hv their own way of happiness.

like ah ber & her family.

like wat she say "aft so long nv ki bing, we still keep each other no. some of the rest already deleted". in my opinion, somehow it is rather encouraging. alt we REALLY SELDOM meet up or contact. we rem tat there is still this somebody u hvn 4gotten. becos u treat them as ur friend?

hope this small gathering will kick off 2011 into style. atleast for mine.

who r u

2011-01-02T01:35:00.002+08:00

y u nv think of him? y u nv think of her?
y u nv think for him? y u nv think for her?
nv think for this person tat person..

in the end.. who think of me? who think for me?
ask urself..

1st post

2011-01-01T15:55:00.003+08:00

wat? my 1st post is an angry post?
sianz..

hate to say bad things n this is juz start of a new yr.. is like wtf..
ppl go out celeb n hv fun.. i stay hm straight 3 days at hm.. knn...

regret not going to sch first den start working.. really regret.. if not i wont hv been at hm for all festive season.. if not i wld hv know more new ppl.. enjoy my prime..
instead.. now i stuck in between.. n not happy at all wit my screwed up life..

y cant 2011 be any better?

if i could speak all language in the world.. i would say scream all their vulgarity in ur fucking face...

hrs to 2011

2010-12-31T00:39:00.005+08:00

so wat hv u done this yr to make urself proud?
to say the lest tat it is a well worth yr?
wat do u think u could hv done this yr compared to the last n next yr?
r u better? r u worst?
wat hv u accomplish? wat hv u gain? wat hv u loss? do u feel better? happier? worst? sadder than b4? doin juz fine? learn new things? busier? more relax?

2009:
completed the 42.195km marathon.
being in a r/s
hv a surprising bday in camp
IPPT gold
3rd sgt
Genting trip with campmate
driving license

2010:
went taiwan for holiday
ORD LO!!!
IPPT silver
FT worker for a miserable pay
single
n... tat abt it...

2011:
?
i really hv no idea wat to do yet..
study degree?
work work work?
car (is it really worth)?
learn dancing? learn music?

2010 is drawing to an end.. from jan i hv been pending, yearning, waiting, hoping for 10 may 10 to come. to give me back my freedom, to release me from the "grip". somehow.. now i live a life so similar back to the days of being "gripped"

a yr i achieved nth much. nth much accomplish. nth much excited, to rem, to be proud off..
lets ~~hope, no! hope is for desperate n helpless ppl~~ , make 2011 a more memorable n cheerful one :)

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somehow i realise some ppl u might not contact regularly, but they still regard u as their friend. they still rem u, wishes u during festive season.
or mayb, they even share the same view as u.

friends r not define by the time spend together, but the quality of fun they shared.

if dream r sometime true n forecast. pls tell / hint me..
dont let me live in despair n hopeless.. i really hate to live aimlessly..

u think u can handle me?

2010-12-30T00:04:00.005+08:00

You know I know how
To make em stop and stare as I zone out
The club can't even handle me right now
Watchin you I'm watchin you we go all out
The club can't even handle me right now...

so feel like dancing.. so feel like popin up somewhere no one knows who am i.. juz doing things tat i like.. even it is juz a random things.. so hv u got ur gears on ready to dance?

how i wish i was born a dancer.. sweat it out n move it all ard..

like those character in Step Up series..

but in sg? ur wish will always nv come true easy..

寂寞寂寞就好

2010-12-27T01:27:00.002+08:00

was watching channel U mini movie series again.. xiao bin bin is damn cute n adorable.. but cannot imagine aft he grown up.. wat a waste..

anw.. the theme song by Hebe, was keep repeating in my mind..
寂寞..寂寞..就好... not the nicest phrase u wanted to be in.. but the tone is influencing..

got touched by this show.. reminds me how long since eversince i shed a tear..
back in feb? if i not wrong when i broke up wit kim.. anw its over..

but.. crying out loud really helps.. it let u think more clearly aft tat, relax ur tense muscle.. reshuffle ur tt..

sound like a whimp i might be.. but still i am human afterall..

xmas

2010-12-25T15:51:00.002+08:00

indifferent xmas..

aftnoon was attending com's xmas gathering, but all r grps into their own.. like stranger..
like me, choosing to be neutral? not sitting with ANY of my colleagues.. lolz..
was sitting wit ml since she no place to go so meet me at coffee shop to chat.. aft tat went to buy shoe n shop for awhile b4 i left hm to prepare nite event..

didnt get the chance to tok to my pretty colleague.. sadded.. she was sitting wit others n i'm like unknown to them.. only spotted me when i wave gd byz to them... diao.. actually oso not really enthu wit the event.. cos i know tat it is too massy for all to get together.. somemore i am consider an "outcast" to them.. nvm la.. duno is they will outlast me in this com or i leave to join the outside cruel world..

not the happiest but still consider 1 of the better one.. all thanz to ed n yj for orgzin n preparin..
gift xchange was brought to live by determine the "worst" of the nite.. lolz..
no surpries for tat..

atleast all brought food, present n wear according to themes... only sf? duno is dun care or she too busy to do the requirement..

the down part is the game? not all involved.. quite weird, all seperate into grps.. n the shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! annoying sound constantly sound out rather than whahhahaahhahahahahahahahahaha is...

hv the weirdess dreamz of all.. lolz.. cannot help by luffin at myself..

anw, this is 1 of the better xmas since the last i enjoyed..

channel u original movie

2010-12-19T23:10:00.002+08:00

been quite a while ever since i sit infront of tv finish watching an original local movie..
even tt i dun quite like felica chin, but i still fin the show..

love story, in a way tat it seems like knocked sth inside me..

"true happiness belong to 2 person only"

i think 1 of the line is like this.. quite true n real..
mayb its time i open up again to accept someone new...

almost perfect

2010-12-18T14:11:00.003+08:00

yeah.. finally got chance to go uss.. thanks to kim's free tix! haha..

tt was quite boring n tiring to go cos at sentosa somemore muz wake up at 7+ lor! even i work oso nv wake up so early.. but it worth the effort.. hahaha..

took some time off from my crazy work to enjoy myself.. even tt boss called but still ok la.. atleast he apologize lolz..

the uss 1 of a kind experience.. not bad sia.. but the things still not all open yet so not totally played all.. the ride still not bad.. left galaxy battlestar... i think sit liao sure pee inside my pants.. hahhahaa..

thanz to kim alt she is too hum to sit, she still sit the ride wit me.. ahahaha

if got time will upload some of the photo.. :)

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the better day end wit a bitter nite?

unexpected personel appear n messed up the event.. fuck him la..
i duno if it is becos of being instructed or willingly.. but the move only make everyone know that there isn't any trust in between. only those who know, will _stand wat i say.

another 1 is not worth mentioned.. he dun even worth to be my acquaintance..

rather exchange n betray his friend for a tower of beer.
rather ask others to help him buy the xmas exchange gift, show no effort n respect for his "friend".
spent only his effort,time n $ on the woman he wan to bang.
spent everyday n time plan for himself.
sorry i dun need to know this type of animal.
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my phrasing can b ugly, but i rather die than to lie.
i cld careless even u hate my guts.

Hebe - Love

2010-12-13T02:25:00.002+08:00

我爱你你爱她她爱她她爱他
你爱我我爱他他爱他他爱她

咦
怎么这世界已经没有人相爱
怎么这世界每个人都不快乐
怎么这世界每个人都爱别人
不爱自己

咦
怎么这世界已经没有人相爱
怎么这世界每个人都不快乐
怎么这世界每个人都爱别人
不爱自己

times

2010-12-13T02:01:00.002+08:00

got so many many things.. but duno where to start..

perhaps it is really gd to be busy.. keeps me on my toe n do things more..
meet half the 404 class for sf bday.. went shoppin for ml post bday present.. stay late everyday for work.. work on sat.. go coffee shop on sun nite.. meet up campmates.. got a new boots!

alot more which i oso cant rem.. hahaha..
overall it is quite a week.. gd week tat is..

get to hv an old time chat wit my pri sch friend (who i nv contact for 10yrs). only to find out tat she was actually sitting beside me last time!!! n i xchange candy wit her? so many things which i cant rem...

another pri sch friend told me she will nv 4get tat i used a pencil to leave a mark on her hand!? she even name out the class i was in from p1 - p6 when she drunk!!

hahaha.. so nice to hear them telling me all the funny things i do last time.. n remind me actually life is amazing.. things u 4gotten, ppl rems. 4lifez somemore!

there wont always be sunshine n all smile,sometime rain will occur.
aft all the bad things, u will still be able to be happy again :)
this wk marks a wk i really enjoyed. more pls! lolz..

days

2010-12-08T00:43:00.002+08:00

waow... i tt i hvn been writing for very long.. actually is juz 3-4days.. lolz..

these few days really very busy? or act busy? actually is taking in more knowledge..
more useful things tat will enhance me..

was reading this article.. choose a path for your career..
the inside tips i can rem was..

pick a career u can show off.
pick a job instead of a career.
pick a prospected job but not interested.

the rest i cant rem.. lolz..

but wat they sau is actually very true.. no point u working a very prospect job but u no interest.. in the end.. u wont make it there..

like my friend.. start a business of his own.. which is very ideal for him.. SOCCER!!

mixed reaction..

2010-12-05T02:48:00.002+08:00

duno y.. when meet yw, her bf n eileen for dinner.. tats a sense of weirdness..
normally dun even see each other, hardly contact each other.. den suddenly meet dinner..

tt got quite a few ppl but end up wit 4 ppl -_-"

ml was busy, yw 4get to call the rest???

anw, got NOTHING! to tok to her bf..

if in the first place i knew there are only 4 ppl, i wont even hv turn up.. shld hv juz continue to shop wit my friend instead of putting her plane.. like not so gd.. half way run away..

luckily eileen n gf tok cock wit me till late 11+, ar bo the sat is again a wasted one..
like wtf? everyone is telling me that they r getting old?

izzit juz tat i wont admit it? or they simply too pessimistic?

dilemma

2010-12-02T23:32:00.003+08:00

most of the time, i really regret i choosen the wrong side.

choose the wrong ppl to be wit
choose the wrong ppl to trust
choose the wrong side of friends

the more i hang around with them, the most i felt i m wrong.
sometime i mayb be very fussy, very dominating. but i dun feel tat i am wrong to speak up to them.. scolding them as well.. becos they simply deserved it.

early 20s telling me that they r old?
telling me tat they prefer to stay at hm during festival season instead of spreading their youth?
$50 is too much for present for friends u know for more than 10yrs?
willingly to spent wit gal they wanna bang?

1 day these @$$h0l3s gonna regret tat they let their youth juz fly passed n not treating their friendz more seriously n better.. by staying at hm n being selfish.. fuck u all.

most imptly, most of u dun deserve to be even called my friends, let along brothers.

shld i leave to find new ppl? or acutally the whole sg is already like tat? selfish ppl.

where did my version of "hao nan, shan ji, da tian 2, bao pi n jiao pi"gone to?
where did my version of "ah mo, dua tao, ah quan, ah ben" gone to?

the day

2010-11-29T23:11:00.004+08:00

opps, sorry all.. this is priv blog..
an open space where i throw everything out.. dun wish to be disturb.. mayb 1 day i will reopen for all to read again :)
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as predicted, i can sense the diff between today n yest.. juz by the smallest of incident..
sometime i wished i hvn been so "clever" or "sensitive" or "accurate" or observant.. but so how.. i am juz tat..

mayb i am born to be so "unlucky", thanz to the "one" b4 me? juz becos i get to come to this world means i am actually going tru quite a difficult time.. most of the time tat is..

channel 8 was showing some show, which i normally hated to watch becos it involved tear n sadness.. which inflicted in me.. they were showing a woman nv get to see her parent the last time b4 they "leave".. a woman went back to her hometown aft 3yrs..

wat pains me most is they show her relative welcoming her back wit open arm... her sibling travel 2-4hrs journey juz to come n hv a meal, small chatting wit her.. her friend from her hometown hugging her, giving her the blessing she needed..
lastly the host said "in our modern society ppl r less than who they used to be, but here i see the ppl we used to be."

so when will 1 day i sit down wit my family chatting happily like i'm chatting wit my friend?
when will 1 day tat actually my "friends" r acutally celebrating my birthday for me?
yes, i am damn selfish. i want my birthday to be my birthday. not celebrated wit the others as a combined one. mayb , it will nv happen given my situation of life...
nv had i eaten a cake, from my friends, juz for me.
let along a celebration tat was org for me.
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kim celeb my bday for me n even bought me a cake. even it is juz a slice, i m still very grateful to her.. for she know how i feel n think..

she even went so far to org a bday celebration for me wit my "friends".

i cannot say anything more than "thank you" to her, cannot feel anything more than grateful to her.. for she is always by my side when i m down... but i cannot treat her as my gal juz becos of wat she did to me.. for i believe tat love shld be from 2 side not 1 side..

i m sorry kim.
1 day u will realise tat i m not ur guy u needed.
even i choose wrong again, i will live wit it myself.
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yest was 1 of my friend bday. but i did not celeb / get her a present. i did nth.. i m sorry.
not becos i dun wan, but i cant..
i dun like ppl to say i trying to get into others r/s (even it is juz my thinking), i dun wan to let her feel tat i treating her gd becos i wan sth back..
all i wan is ppl treat me as their true friend.
one when anything happen, they rem to come n find me. one when i m down i can tok to.

she, juz like kim, did almost everything for me.. but life is all tricks n choice. i pick the wrong one i lived wit it n tat all.

sorry mei lee. i will get u a present. also, wish u marry a great guy too :)
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1 of my camp who i always think is nonsense suddenly told me tat he is starting this own business.. i was shell shock. becos i can nv be as brave as advanturous as him. doing a business which he interested the most. sports.
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browsing n browsing den i came across so called my "fav" fb page. only to realise tat she is actually attached or mayb soon gonna be attached.. to ppl i know somemore which make it worst.. seeing her took photo wit other guys dun make me feel gd tt..

addin salt to injury is nv fun. kinda feel sad. becos they celeb his bday for him.
even juz a small one. most likely tat he n she will become an item? (i m always tat damn accurate) tat y make me even more heartpain.

duno if i really hv a feeling for her or mayb becos i juz wan to get an excuse for myself.
to set myself free.

so long i hvn hv any heart beating moment which i can rem.
the past few yrs was juz like going tru motion.

on top of that, i feel so left out..
my neighbour said "+ n - pt, work here u get hm early but u wont get to see how the town is like"

ppl work, i work.
ppl aft work go out, i go home.
ppl aft work go out wit friend, shoppin, celebratin, enjoy, dinner.
ppl's friend, colleague = true
my friend n colleague = false
me = home.

mayb (again n again) i am not truely worth tokin heart to heart to anyone.
i am juz not tat brave anymore.

sorry ah bee. u r not tat gd any more..
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which eventually sum up my -feelin.

thank you for listenin to me.
i'll be juz fine.

人因梦想而伟大. luvurdreamz

2010-11-17T22:24:00.007+08:00

yes, on this cosy n windy nite. again. i stayed hm whole day n not mingling wit new ppl/friend.
I NEED TO KNOW MORE PPL, MAKE MORE NEW FRIEND!!!
expand my network, live my life!!! not to waste my youth, my energy, my prime!!
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do u hv a dream? or do u hv dreams? ever wonder y dreams is so impt to human?
人因梦想而伟大.
we came to this world to live our dreams, to make things happen, to cre8, to feel, to luv, to hate, to rem, to 4get, to enjoy, to suffer, to produce wat the rest tat doesnt make it here.

dreamz has it all.. the motivation to cre8 ur own dreamz, to make things happen..

when i was young, i dream abt being a wrestler. fighting infront of thousands (back then i tt it was real).. making a grand entrance wit electrify music, wrestle to be the champion, luv by the millions n millions of fans ard the world.. thus jumpin, runnin, imagine 1 day i will become 1 of the "superstar"...

as the yrs goes by.. i grew up..

i dream abt being a professional player.. kicking, running, jumping, performin tricks ard the world.. dreaming to 1 day become so famous like my idol : cristiano ronaldo n beckham who influence millions n millions of ppl ard the world tru their fame.. even they nv actually met 3/4 of them b4..

c.ronaldo influence to kids/ppls ard the world.. 1 of them from his country (Portugal) in particular was battling cancer.. he cant run, let along play soccer but his idol is C.R.
he dream to met him 1 day in person b4 he die. C.R came to know abt it n he flew to meet this kid. yes, he is damn famous but he put down everything juz to see this kid without anyone knowing b4 his coach reveal in an interview.. i dream to be like him, i dream to be as influential as him.. tellin ppl to live their dreamz, fight for wat they believe.

beckham influence too. his fashion sense, his dressing, his loyalty to manchester united (even he became more famous than anyone), his passion for football. he change the way how ppl think of professional looking.. he change the way how footballer shld be in ppl's eye..
i dream to be like him too.. dress up so smartly in my way to tell ppl to express themselve.. dun wear like basketballer, dun give that i am sportman i shld dress only like this.. who say sportman cant be stylish?

till lately b4 i ORD.. i dream abt being an artist/entertainer.. being a profession tat allows me to wear/do/travel/play/influence watever i wan, whenever i wan...

dream abt travellin ard to see more things, know more ppl..
dream abt wearin stylish n look smart everytime i hit the street..
dream abt performin, entertainin to make ppl happier than happy..
dream abt being famous,influential and inspiring to ppl everywhere..
dream abt putting up a campaign that reads " I ♥ SG, do you? " to influence/stir up ppl to make a sense of belongin to our own country..

lolz.. naive but i cant help to think tat we really lack the national sense of belongin compared to US / Taiwan.. they aren't afraid to tell ppl ard the world they come from their country..

was watchin tv juz now (yes, another boring nite at hm, __ -_-"' __) when the variety show was showing "tribute to michael jackson"!

the superstar of the century, the performance, the dances tat everyone try to imitate. the person tat everyone in the 90s n millennium recognise!
the tribute was showing FANS ard the WORLD doin his dance in the middle of the street!
worshiping him.. be it new york, mexico, taiwan, spain n the etc etc.. a way to pay respect to him even tt he left us a yr ago..
this is how legendary, how influential he is.. even the lack of his presence. we rem him.
sometime i wonder, when i passed on, will anyone actually rem me? for the right/wrong reason?

but suddenly.. now.. i hv no dreamz.. i duno wat to do anymore.. i duno wat to dream for anymore.. i lose that motivation to keep movin on anymore.. everyday is work, hm , eat, slp n repeat n repeat.. every weekdays thinkin wat to do during weekend..

is not tat i am not hardworking enough to work weekend... but life isnt juz abt earning n working n 4get tat we came to this world to live our dreams, to make things happen, to cre8, to feel, to luv, to hate, to rem, to 4get, to enjoy, to suffer, to produce wat the rest tat doesnt make it here.

i wan to learn piano, i wan to buy my own car, i wan to study Uni (b4 i too old), i wan to learn street dance. but , always but, i hv no idea/motivation/dreamz to do all those..

is it really tat hard to archieve anything?
duno y i cant do everything alone... perhaps i am a true team player.

perhaps i shld became an author? recording selling, free-styling, innovative, creative, stylish n expressive.. influence millions tru my books. (:

aint emo tt, was juz expressin myself.. since lately i hv not being so expressive..
n this post took 1 hr of my time, which actually worth my time writing :P

水瓶座 2010留下的遗憾

2010-11-14T21:57:00.001+08:00

2010留下的遗憾：在爱情上没有给自己来个狠的

　　水瓶座今年在感情上注定要留下一个遗憾，单身的想恋爱却迟迟不见自己有所行动，总感觉身边遇不到良人，即使遇到了也要对方先开口，在真爱面前要矜持，可你不开口，对方根本不知道你的心意，故作清高只会让你失去很多机会，你根本都没打起十二分精神去向喜欢的人告白，根本没有跟别人去尝试，怎么就知道找不到良人呢？

hm......

STM

2010-11-14T03:15:00.001+08:00

y cant i juz rem anythin?

did i or didnt i?

if so, y didnt i took tat chance?

Company's D & D

2010-11-09T23:39:00.004+08:00

wow... very shag.. very tired.. very sick.. but all worth it :)
the company's D&D is really something which i nv expected..

unlike most com's D&D.. wear nice nice.. go hotel.. eat nice food..
ours?

drink drink drink, club club club, massage massage massage, eat eat eat, sports sportss sportsss..

not only all the staff.. even the bosses all go 2gather...
ur boss got go club/water sport wit u not? lolz..

D&D nite is the craziest.. no horse run... lolz..

everyday slp 3-5hr only.. next mornin chiong n chiong..

alt abit $$$, still worth the price :)

Muz try the water sport, wee you wee.. water ski + parasking.. damn nice..
also, water rafting!

massage n food on the other hand is juz so so lor..

ah beng ah lian

2010-11-09T23:25:00.001+08:00

http://starblog.stomp.com.sg/post.php?blogid=1763

1 of my fav. lolz..

2010-10-30T14:56:00.002+08:00

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/stomp/sgseen/this_urban_jungle/483896/sleeping_in_class_which_is_your_favourite_position.html

destinated?

2010-10-26T23:54:00.005+08:00

when i was young n studying.. i hated "engineering"
but ended up, i took "Engineering Informatics" in Poly (which i actually enjoyed, but not much)...
when i was young n working.. i hated "sales"
but ended up, i'm actually doing pre-sale now...

the most ironic/irony is my job title : "Sales Engineer"

WTF!?!?!?

now i facing the dilema of whether to stay on for this job or shld i leave aft 2 yrs to really think wat i wan to be??

becos of the job nature n the process of dealing (esp aft today).. which doesn't suit my characteristic at all..

i dun like to lie, dun like to tok to stranger, dun like sales job, dun like doing things out of my control.. dun like to report to whoever whenever i doing sth..

juz when i tt i startin to get a hang on the job n starting to feel like it.. den everything tat doesnt goes well juz happen...

juz like i always say.. i'm not cut to be in the corporate world.
or mayb i am born to be in?

ppl up there wan give me some hint not?

toy story :)

2010-10-21T00:24:00.002+08:00

You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me
When the road looks rough ahead
And you're miles and miles
From your nice warm bed
You just remember what your old pal said
Boy, you've got a friend in me
Yeah, you've got a friend in me

You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me
If you've got troubles, I've got 'em too
There isn't anything I wouldn't do for you
We stick together and can see it through
Cause you've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me

Some other folks might be
A little bit smarter than I am
Bigger and stronger too
Maybe
But none of them will ever love you
The way I do, it's me and you

Boy, and as the years go by
Our friendship will never die
You're gonna see it's our destiny
You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me

where is my woody?

New World Order

2010-10-19T22:18:00.005+08:00

who say wear suit muz hv this hair style or muz wear like this?

Sorry man.. this is my time.. my style..
i prefer to wear like this and this hairstyle!

y ppl say that muz dress properly n hv a professional haircut? cant understand..

who say fanciful hair style n casual smart aren't professional enough?

so professional footballer like beckham and ronaldo can hv it, y cant the rest?

crazy human nowadays..

Influential Figure in my life : part 1

2010-10-19T22:16:00.004+08:00

David Beckham

when i first into soccer.

when i first starting to watch matches.

when i first learnin how to smile properly.

David beckham was the first guy tat impress me with his excellent playing skill and his handsome face. His goal celebration shows the passion, the heart, the determination to win a game.

Esp in a match wit Greece, when he score a brilliant free-kick tat sent England tru.

becos of him, i started to support manchester united and england.

His smile was by then, my fav smile. Bright and nice. :)

Since 13, hv been imitating his smile and his game. even until now!

slamdunk!

2010-10-18T00:12:00.004+08:00

today marks the day i pick up n play basketball again.
after few yrs of not playing, the feel n passion n memories all came back..

sound ironic n exaggerate, but is the truth.

the joking, the laughter, the sweat, the jumpin, the shootin, the passin, the movement, the environment, the peeps..

all came back to me.. the indescribable feelin n memories...
juz like when we were in our younger days.. when we were all 13-15 yrs old..

here is wat we watch every saturday (which i prefer), when there are no youtube n free online video to watch like nowadays.. which make eveyone like a geek n lack of human touch!

enjoy my friend (:

现代人

2010-10-11T03:32:00.002+08:00

上一代的人

讲义气人性化
互相扶持

孝顺诚实
统统讲情

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这一代的人

没义气没人性
自私自利

不孝不诚实
统统讲钱

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还是老爸老妈好，不管多累也撑着
外公外婆不用保佑我，保佑老爸老妈就好

get a life

2010-10-09T15:52:00.002+08:00

super no life......
eat slp work eat slp work eat slp work

give me life!!!!

hum ji human

2010-10-06T23:41:00.001+08:00

if u r slow n not clever, its ok. 1 day u still will catch up.
if u r hum ji n attitude, its not ok. 1 day u will juz die for no reason.
cos u fuckup!

给我一首歌的时间

2010-09-29T23:43:00.001+08:00

虽然只有一首歌的时间，但那感觉蛮好的。

Mid-Autumn Festival

2010-09-24T00:42:00.002+08:00

2days ago was moon cake festival... didnt realise till we went to eat for bro bday den mama say..

its been 2 yrs ever since i ate a moon cake.. play wit fire.. walk ard wit lantern... those were the days when i does tat annually..

wat a waste..

guess modern human in sg doesnt appreciate n enjoy these tradition...
all they do is work work work.. study study study... play online game... watch tv...
future human in sg r fuckup, most proberly cold blooded..

my bro n I

2010-09-22T00:54:00.002+08:00

for the past 23yrs 9months 21days 23hrs..
i think this is the longest conversation we had together.. alt i didnt tok much..

becos i m on the verge of quitting my current job..(which bored me to death)

he was askin y am i nagging n complaining abt my job..
becos its really bored me to death.. the environment, the ppl, the scope..

he explained to me abt y am i there.. y company got 100+ ppl but only i doin tat job..
he explained y this is a rare opportunities tat i shld took..
but wat he say make sense..

im still young n i shld take the chance n look at the world outside now b4 i get old.. yes this is the time. tat wat i believe n think so.

but......

how many ppl really got this chance like me? how many ppl r doin this like me?
ans : my boss n I (in 2 yrs time)

my boss paved the road 5-6yrs ago when he took over.. so now i m virtually takin over n walkin on the path he paved for me..

like my bro said, 10 yrs ago he paved the MAC's path, now his friend is walking on it within 2yrs..

前人种树,后人拾果.

i know he always put up a black face, temperamental at times..
but the way he explained n tok to me..
deep down, i know he cares.

Job

2010-09-13T23:37:00.002+08:00

Everyone is lookin for a relax n stable job. Everyday nth happen swee swee off work go hm relax..
Whereas I am opposite.. I wan chiong n chiong.. Everyday work n work.. Get advantures job.. Not juz another everyday job.. Guess I am not cut to be a corporate person. I juz can't stay at 1 place for so long.. Think it's time to tell my boss how I think n ask him give me more job or mayb run ard instead of stayin at a place al time..

If so, I'll shelf my studies aside first n get a car instead?
If not I gonna start signing up for piano lesson.. Before I bored to death..

2010-09-07T23:09:00.002+08:00

slp for 3 whole day still so tired.. think my lung is tellin me sth..
vomit diarrhoea since day 1.. woo.. confirm lose weight.. hahaha

不能说的秘密

2010-09-03T01:07:00.003+08:00

sssshhhhhhhhhhh...... 这是一个不能说的秘密...

aft so many yrs, now den i get the story right...
陆小雨 is not ghost.. she juz travel 20yrs to the future...

its like 3yrs ago i watched this show wit den gf..
juz now was watching alone..

the whole show was enjoying.. till some part in the middle.. sth knock to me..
my brain like crazy again.. start running wild n keeps going on n on n on n on n on n on.. lolz..

now i am 23. i start working. i was assign at a boring place. my life seems to be a routine. i dun get contact wit ppl my age. i tok like im way older. my topic of conversation is ...... disappointing..

shld i get a new job aft 2 yrs.... shld i stay in the corporate world????? shld i pursuit my own interest... shld i finally start planning for my future.. shld i ?

10yrs is a very long time she said in the movie..
she say : "having 10yrs wit someone is really a plenty of times shared..."
he say : "in the end they still parted.."

lolz.. i can only think of my friend.. who spent the last 10yrs wit her bf.. how many couple really shared this long of time together............ mayb this is fate. for them destined to be for each other.. or.. born for each other.. still as loving as b4 :)

it may sound boring staring at the same person for 1yr, 10yrs, 100yrs or more.. but in the end..
its the love tats count.. 一起长大的约定

Top 10 influential figure

2010-08-31T23:37:00.002+08:00

been wanted to write this post since quite long ago.. but either no time or too tired to think wat to write..

the 10 influential figure in my life till now..

write to attract attention? no no.. becos i like to write thus i write.. i like to say watever i think is correct here.. who can stop me? nobody.. hahaha

even my MD come i oso tell him i go eat lunch den shun bian fetch him..
actually at first tt "die liao.. duno he eat already not".. later part i think "aiya fuck care la.. i sayin the truth wat.. y scare.. better than i tell lie or act busy.." think i might not get promote easily.. lolz..

mayb i shld really write the 10 figure out.. but now.. shag cannot think.. lolz.. wait till i know who to place at which position den say..